Parenting alone - Day 1

Date : 13th Jan 2014

This afternoon, Vishal flew to Calcutta on an official tour and will only be back after 4 days. Aaru was disappointed since he couldn’t meet his father the entire day but was jumping high when he received a call from Papa to inquire about his day just like any other day. I love to see this Son & daddy conversation. Aaru at first asked him "Papa, when are you coming back?" and then grabs the accurate chance to request cum demand for some gift that papa ‘should’ get for him on his returns.

This evening my 5 year old said “Mummy, I feel something missing missing from the family since papa is not around”. I smiled as I hug him tight. His innocent eyes could see the house incomplete. We both miss Vishal in our own perspective. 

Ever since I am married to him, he had gone on several official travels. I remember for the first time how much I sobbed for hours long holding his T-shirt close to my heart (the one he wore that day). Back then I was working hence the entire day would pass great. Mumbai city never sleeps and its noise and crowd never leaves you alone.  As I return back, I never like entering into the empty house. There was no fun sitting alone in balcony with a cup of tea. I used to watch T.V till I felt sleep. Getting up middle of the nights was most frightened thing. My heartbeat used to fastens up. Finally when alarm rings, I am thankful to the morning to wrap up my lonely night. I keep crossing the date on calendar and lessen up one day of waiting. 

As the years passes by, I grew little stronger and more responsible.If something still doesn’t change then it’s undoubtedly the amount of missing him and tears I shed.

But I am happy now b'coz my 5 year old son accompany me. To hooked me busy around him. I love him when he assures me to take care of the house and me in papa’s absence. He is obedient and really behaves well. He makes sure to listen me and act. He asks if I need his help in kitchen. He would also hold me tight while sleeping. I wonder how he knows secretly that some part of me is still scared. I feel awesome when he kisses and hugs me. I feel relaxed. I feel being loved. I feel great to be his mother.

 

So day 1 ended up well. We completed his home work, some carom playing n watching cartoons together. A child like him is not difficult to handle perhaps he would ask about papa's return and gets angry if he delays.

People says “Only the daughter can understand her mother well” Can you still say when you have a lovely Son like mine, who is so connected with my heart and understand me as better as any daughter can.

Day one - I did single parenting to him and in returns he took real good care of his lady.

With a sweet note...Good night…

Stay Happy, Stay Bless !

Keep smiling, Keep loving!

Snehal :)